A Letter to a Local DanceYoga Studio

I was at the point of signing up my twins for the next available kids
yoga dance class. Fortunately, I looked at the general class calendar
and noted your hostility toward fat people before I made that mistake.
The suggestion that the point of exercise is to get rid of that "jelly
belly" or "lose that belly by belly dancing" rather than to increase
fitness is disturbing. You have assured me through your class
descriptions that my daughter would not be welcome in your classes.

Current nutrition and fitness research includes an approach known as
Health At Every Size (HAES). You might want to look into it if you
don't want to alienate potential customers.

Mary -------


I am scared of what is happening to my body.

Of what is happening to me.

Despite getting up at 5:30 every other morning to work out, albeit at a pathetic half of my usual (is it really former already?) pace, I am making grocery decisions based on which store has the best motorized scooter carts. I'm in burning pain during workouts, exhausted afterward and sore the next day as if I'm pushing myself hard instead of slacking.

I'm getting tested for cancer and emphysema.

For months I've been struggling with thoughts that I am making a mountain out of a molehill and hence won't be believed. I'm over that now. There's really something wrong besides laziness or deconditioning or hypochondria. I wish I could go back to the comfort of doubting myself.